Buhay Pa Rin Ako

Naging busy lang.

Early December, we had a small party; not exclusive to our clique, but a reunion of the people na tambay nang isang sikat na bilyaran (college days). We’ve become extended tropa of one another kahit hindi naman kami talagang magkakaibigan. Nagrent kami ng rooftop, private residence. Dati na namin nirerent yun, college pa lang kami. Mahilig talaga kami sa reunion at parties — iba’t iba na ang buhay namin.

Our mid 30s is the best (so it seems), we have thrived career wise, yung mga mukhang haggard na tambay? Sosyal na at magaganda ang sasakyan ha! We have a dj among us, may tattoo artist, may singer, may caterer, may photographer, may nagbibusiness, may houseband pero mayaman daw ang misis, the rest, office workers. Mukhang walang sumunod sa yapak ni Efren “Bata” Reyes ah. When we were in college, feeling namin lahat kami professional ang galawan.

Nakausap ko ng matagal that night si photographer at houseband. Mukhang okay naman si photographer financially kasi malaki ang ambag. Pero wala pa syang house (kung makasalita naman ako kala mo meron ako, eh freeloader lang naman ako). According to him, nagrerent sya ng townhouse but it can get too expensive raw especially that he is alone without a housemate. Okay lang naman daw but he wants to cut his expenses, he wants to save more daw for a permanent home. Sabay singit ni houseband na “ayan oh, magrent ka dyan (sakin daw), laki ng condo nya, sya lang mag-isa”. We laughed because it’s funny. I never had a housemate na regular, puro yung mga transient lang. But then next we know is nagcacalculate na kami ng utility bills.

Ayun na nga, may roommate na ako. Naisip ko, malaking tulong rin yun for gas since kahit gaanong ka ganda ang location ng bahay ko, the fact na anlayo naman nito sa work ko, pang-asar rin so makabawi man lang sa gas at pamasahe.

Sino ba itong photographer na ito sa buhay ko? Wala. Ni hindi nga kami friends if you sum it up.

Pero dati, he’s one of the cutest in our campus. We wondered about him because para syang may sariling mundo. May dalang gitara palagi. Tatambay sa amin, pero hindi mag-eengage, then aalis after 15 minutes. Ganun lang. Wala. That time, we girls used to call him Jay (for Jay Manalo), kamukha nya eh.

So ngayon, mas hot na sya. Malaki na ang katawan, obvious na nagbubuhat. Camera na ang dala parati instead of gitara na meron pa rin sa room nya to be fair. Musikero pa rin pala. Pero like before, may sariling mundo pa rin.

He tries to cook, pero parang breakfast lagi. Tinitirahan nya ako ng food kahit hindi naman kami share sa food and groceries. Then, he asked me 3 weeks ago kung okay lang magbisita. I said yes of course. So may dinala syang super sexy na model (I assumed) kasi katawan model eh tapos halatang early 20s lang. Whatever they did, keber diba? But in me, medyo cringe. First time ko may ka-share ng house na nagdadala ng girls… yes, plural, kasi parang 3 na nakikita ko (minus pa yung during the day na hindi ko inaabot) kung meron man.

Okay, kaya ako napablog bigla is because yesterday, over lunch, since parehas kaming nasa bahay lang at walang lakad, nabore siguro at tinanong ako, “bakit ba hindi tayo lumabas nung college?”

Napaisip ako ha, sa loob ko, hindi ka naman kalabas labas nun kasi may sarili kang mundo. Then naalala ko si Jay Manalo.

I answered him, “because you never asked”.

Nashokt ako sa sagot ko. Hindi ko alam bakit I sounded flirtatious in my head.

Alam kong hindi friendly yung sagot ko at medyo may malice. While sya, siguradong casual question lang. After my answer, he leaned and inayos yung buhok ko kasi it’s all over my face, then he took a photo of me. Ganun talaga ang sequence ng pangyayari.

Sinabi ko, pag di nya dinelete sasaktan ko sya, I chased him around to give me the camera.

It was a playful afternoon.

Nothing strange happened.

But I am kind of scared. I thought about him all night. I cannot lust for my housemate especially if he’s that kind of guy, the kind who will surely give in. I know that one misstep, my body will betray me and I will be in serious trouble.


TMI for Breakfast?!

How to play TMI Tuesday: Copy the above TMI Tuesday questions to your webspace (i.e., a blog). Answer the questions there, then leave a comment below, on this blog post, so we’ll all know where to read your responses. Please don’t forget to link to tmituesdayblog from your website!

1. What’s for breakfast? – Tocilog. It’s a combination of Tocino (sweet/savory/fried chicken, almost caramelized), Sinangag (fried rice) and Itlog (egg sunny side up)

2. Three words you don’t want to hear during sex.

I can’t really pinpoint three words, but I don’t like too much noise/dramatics

3. Stupid shit you shouldn’t do but do anyway. List two.

  • Buying similar things from Lazada and Shopee
  • Watching too much vlogs

4. One thing you love to hate.

My sister-in-law (my brother’s wife)

5. Today is a great day for _____ .

Relaxation, Spa, and all the girly goodness

TMI – 19 October 2021

TMI Time!

Tell us 7 things making you happy right now, and why they make you happy.

a. Scored new loots from Lazada

b. Discovering FB locked profile feature

c. JM De Guzman rumored to be the 3rd party of Aljur/Kylie breakup – I’d think twice too, if it’s for JM.

d. The fact that I’ll be able to see my parents this weekend

e. New shoes. I got an Alviero pair, it’s awesome!

f. Booster shots could be happening soon

g. You Season 3 binge

2. Tell us 5 things you learned last week.

a. Time flies so fast so optimal living in the now is very important

b. 3000 pesos is no longer enough for groceries

c. Shoes are better than purses

d. Green is the best color

e. Contacts had ultimately destroyed my eyes

3. Tell us 3 things that stand out for you in 2021.

a. So much death, it breaks my heart

b. Normalized being back to work but forever cringing on every touch

c. Learned so many words that my notepad is now almost full

Bonus: What is the #1 thing you cannot do without in life?

I have no idea, this is so absolute… there are those of course that I do not want to go on without (and I know them by heart) but saying I cannot do without? Hmm.. probably, the ability to care for myself let’s say if I developed a degenerative disease and it has progressed to the point that I can’t even breathe on my own… yes, that’s it.


It’s been quite a while, since i did one of these…

TMI Questions

1. I’m so jealous, I wish I was _____ . An artist with unlimited ideas

2. When would you seek help from a sex therapist? – I don’t think I ever will seek help from a sex therapist. Do people really seek help from professionals? For real?

3. How do you break up with a friend? – This is a strange kind of breakup, I normally ghost them. I had a friend who formally broke her bestfriendship with someone. It is weird but practical and straightforward.

4. Give us a tip to turn a bad day around. – Sleep on it for few hours. Always works for me.

Bonus: Do you feel drowned by social media? – I have this exact feeling this morning. Last night, IG, FB and Whatsapp were down. It felt great!


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TMI Tuesday: 13 April 2021


What is an ideal weekend for you?

My ideal weekend at the height of pandemic is basically:

  • Chatting with my family
  • Gaming
  • Light reading
  • Little recording
  • Some friends coming over (when not on lockdown) & of course, after testing negative
  • Netflix

What is the craziest job you would consider taking?

I auditioned for Star Circle some time in the past. Thank God I did not get in. I guess that’s the craziest job I’d ever get into. Imagine me singing in ASAP. Haha. Crazy!

Where would you rate yourself as a kisser on a scale of 1 to 10? (10 being the best kisser ever!) 

I am quite unsure in this regard. Maybe 7?

What do you like most and least about your significant other’s cooking?

Dating during the pandemic is hard. I call him the guy who comes over because he is not significant enough (I guess). He uses air fryer for everything so it’s ok enough.

How has smartphone photography changed your world?

It made me lazier than usual. I used be into lomography, but now, with the filter and all, things just became so handy.

Bonus: What is a good life?

Now that I am seeing how hard life is during a plague like this, I feel that we certainly had it so good before. A good life is a life without the threat of dying on the spot like how it is right now.

I am not being a pessimist or something, I am still hopeful that we’d all get the good life back very soon.